Ravak Darrow
There was a knock at the door. "Come," the Master of Training beckoned, and in stepped an Asha'man, cord of indigo around his collar. He strode over to Rav's desk, offered a letter with a stiff bow, then departed as soon as the letter was out of his grasp. Rav shrugged to himself, slightly bemused by the efficiency of the Asha'man's actions. He never much cared for Asha'man.
The letter was on thick, rich paper. 'Ravak Darrow, Master of Training' was formally written on the front by a beautiful hand. He frowned, turning the letter over, and the frown deepened. The Flame of Hama Valon was imprinted on the wax seal. What in the Light is the Amyrlin Seat doing sending me a message? With care, he cut open the top of the envelope with a dagger, then pulled the paper almost reverentially out. It too was on thick, cream-coloured paper, but the hand was different, and there were odd stains...
He read the note. And the world collapsed.
The letter slipped from numb fingers as he drew his hands up to his face. A sudden heat filled him, replaced by a sudden chill. Goosebumps covered every inch of exposed skin, and a icy chill ran down his spine.
How? a numb voice asked.
He leaned forward on the desk on both elbows, then proceeded to hit his elbows off the desk a few times. When he felt enough pain, his fists came down on the desk. Rav swept his arms right, then left, papers and folders and ledgers scattering across the bare wooden floor. He slammed down on the desk again, overturning the inkwell, causing a pool of black ink to expand across the table. He slammed down again, the bottom of his hands beginning to feel the trauma of the violent impacts. He slammed down again, and again, and again! and again! When the pain became too real, he rose from the desk and kicked it with the bottom of his boot. It barely moved. Crafted from solid oak, it was implacable, but the Shienaran kicked at it again. Then again. Then again, then again! And again!
He kicked and he punched and he swung his fists in anger. He grabbed the quarterstaff he never used and hurdled it at his study room door. The bow went next, then his sword-breaker. With his longsword he lobbed the blade like a spear, and it penetrated at least a foot through the door before stopping.
How? he asked again. HOW!
His heart was beating hard, but there was still a rage that had not quelled. He strode with purpose to the nearest bookcase flanking the fireplace and pulled it towards him. It fell, books scattering long before the shelves cracked against the displaced desk. Rav went to the other side, and did the same with the second bookcase, pulling it down and watching as his prized collection lay in a ruined mess on the ground. Next went the teaset and teapot and jar of bloody honey, the amber liquid and shards of glass streaking across two feet of Taraboner rug. He stopped, scanning the room for anything else to break. A throwing dagger came to hand and it sailed with a smash through the stained glass window depicting a Warder. Another dagger appeared, and he pulled the blade back to his ear before it dawned on him what his next target was - the stained glass window of an Aes Sedai, framed in light with the weaves of the One Power dancing around her.
Rav sunk back against the nearest wall and bawled. He wailed and cried until all he could taste was the salt of his tears. He cried out in heart wrenching agony until his lungs emptied, then he wailed again. That continued until all he could do was moan desperately and pitifully. At some point, he slid to the side and rocked on the ground, knees pressed against his chest in some faint hope of solace from the pain.
Why? he pleaded, but no answers came.
Rav
Ravak had never cared for the Band of Brothers, but he had run out of cares. He had run out of tears too. He felt like the Creator himself had taken a hand and scooped out every part of his humanity, leaving nothing but an empty shell. Ravak had no plan or thoughts beyond the drink in front of him, the drinks behind him, and the drinks yet to come.
There was a bloody big hole to fill, and a world of alcohol to drown himself in.
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- Ravak Gaidin
There was a knock at the door. "Come," the Master of Training beckoned, and in stepped one of the newest Drin in the Yards. Saffie? Sabbie? Sabine... no, that's some novice. He didn't have an eidetic memory, it could be excused. The woman strode over to his desk, offered a simple letter with a stiff bow, then departed as soon as the letter was out of her grasp. Rav shrugged to himself, slightly amused by the efficiency of... Saffie's actions?
The letter had his name on the front in a familiar hand. Orders, he thought wryly. It had been quite some time since he'd received written orders from the Gaidin Captain. It was perfunctory. He was required to escort some an Aes Sedai and an Asha'man to the Citadel, and from there to Fal Eisen. That seemed a perfectly normal task, but he still frowned at the note. Why me? The answer seemed to be because he was Shienaran, even if he didn't look it. That was about the only reason he could puzzle out, and if there was more, the Aes Sedai and Asha'man would share it with him. Frankly he was glad for an opportunity to stretch his legs again. Aside from the survival tests, Ravak Darrow hadn't left the confines of Hama Valon since his return from the Waste, and this letter meant that he was no longer so far in Riahana's bad books that he had to be kept on a short leash.
"I'm going out," Rav called into the other room, where his Drin-come-scribe was secreted away. "I won't be back for a few days."
A few days later, and Ravak was being jostled about between several other Shienarans. They at least looked Shienaran, with their topknots and northern features. He seemed like a foreigner, but he knew the good local beers from the bad, and ordered with impeccable taste... or at least as much as this tavern allowed. He was in Fal Eisen, and the Aes Sedai and Asha'man didn't need protection from anyone but themselves. The two Browns were wanting to look at a library of all bloody things. Why they needed the protection of two Gaidin was beyond Rav, but at least that meant he had company, and someone to drown his sorrows with.
Pale amber liquid sloshed over the sides of the mugs as Ravak placed them down a little too roughly on the small round table. He pulled up a chair and propped himself up opposite Dax. The Tairen was here by merit of the fact that one of the bookish Browns was his wife and bondmate. The last time they had been around a pub, Rav realised, he'd drawn a sword on Dax. Two in fact. It was funny how the times changed.
"So there was six of them," Rav continued. He held out a hand and splayed his fingers to denote the six children. "And they're all running around me like I'm a hero from legend, but the parents, they're looking on with eyes as big as saucers seeing the red shawl on her back thinking 'here's a Darkfriend killer'. They don't know the difference between the White and Grey, of course, especially if they think I'm her Warder, Whites and their no men policy. Anyways, the kids are running about and I dig into my pocket, for some coppers right? Well then it's all gasps and a panic, parents coming rushing at me to save their little ones, as if I'm drawing my swords or something. I'm mobbed; Kaia's mobbed. I try to take my hand out my pouch and the coins go everywhere. Suddenly I've got all of these adults and children bending down to pick up coin, a circle of kneeling servants it seems, and she just gives me this look and this feeling buzzes along the bond, like it's all my fault. Ravak Darrow, Lord of the Masses. And it's my fault, for being charitable and wanting to give some children coin."
He scoffed loudly. "You had that, that look she gives you, when it's not your fault but oh-by-the-Light it so is your fault? Aes Sedai, eh?" He shook his head whilst raising his mug, and trickles of beer leaked into his beard. Rav wiped a hand over his chin, then rubbed it into his trouser leg. Slightly unfocused eyes looked at Dax, and a feeling of shame came over the Shienaran. "Probably shouldn't be saying that about your mother-in-law... or the Keeper." He paused, contemplating. "Meh." He shrugged, and took another swig of the beer.