Tiena had Sinead pinned to a rock somehow, spread eagled with her head to the ground and her feet to the sky, sky clad and sweating as she struggled to escape whatever it was the Wise One used to imprison her. Heat beat down on the Accepted like a merciless blacksmith’s hammer. It had no visible source -as with everywhere in tel’aran’rhiod, light came from everywhere and nowhere at once- and yet it did a fine job of emulating the blistering sun of the Three-fold Land.
Three weeks. Thirty days spent studying, thirty nights spent in varying degrees of discomfort. Sometimes the Wise Ones were present, sometimes not, but Sinead always knew when they pulled her from her dreams and into tel’aran’rhiod, could feel the difference as distinctly as she could feel the stone on her back. Sometimes she thought she could feel what they were doing, the sheer strength of will they exerted on their surroundings to maintain whatever it was they wanted her to see. This was not one of those nights.
Tonight she thought desperately of opening her eyes and feeling Ravak’s body pressed against hers in her narrow bed, of being free of the nightmare Tiena had concocted, of sleeping without dreams for once. She closed her eyes, imagining herself free, then opened them again, only to find herself staring into amused blue eyes.
“I am running out of patience,” Tiena commented. “The next time you sleep, I may put you in black and set you to counting sand.”
The Aielwoman’s thoughts tumbled to a stop, locking in place. The woman’s words conjured recent memories, memories too painful to contemplate, memories that stoked her frustration to a tempest of rage. Every ounce of concentration poured into her study of the older woman’s face as her anger and grief grew. She could not channel -Tiena had made certain of that- and yet….something else was there. If they could control this place, then surely so could she.
Get out of my face, she thought. The words were calm, and yet the force of her desire smashed into Tiena like a stormy sea against a cliff. The Wise One stumbled back, eyes widening, until at last her foot hit a rock sticking out of the ground and she fell. Sinead pushed back with her feet and tucked her arms around her face as she slid down the rock face, rolling to her hands and knees in the sand. Free….for the moment.
When the redhead looked up, Tiena stood over her. Irritated, Sinead scrambled to her feet, ignoring her nudity and the scrapes on her back as she met the Wise One’s gaze with cold green eyes. “Had you allowed me two seconds to speak before you began your ‘lesson,’” she said in a tone heavy with sarcasm, “you would know that I am departing for the Three-fold Land tomorrow. I will be bringing a guardian with me- the Tower does not allow its trainees to wander so far alone.”
“An Aes Sedai?” Tiena’s eyes sharpened.
“No, a Gaidin. His name is Ravak.” Sinead smiled slightly. “He is bonded to another, so save yourself a trip to that place where dreams are,” she added, her tone flippant. It seemed doubtful they would take her at her word, but it couldn't hurt to try.
“Why would the Tower send a bonded Gaidin with an “Accepted”? Why not one who is not bonded?”
The assumed idle curiosity in Tiena’s tone set the former Maiden on edge. “I am coming to the Three-fold Land to learn how to Dreamwalk, not to become a Wise One,” she said through gritted teeth. “What the Tower chooses to do to protect its initiates is none of your affair.” The Wise One’s eyes flashed, and Sinead felt an invisible blow that dropped her to her knees, biting her lip hard against an involuntary exclamation of pain. And so it begins again…
----
Sinead opened her eyes, groggy and disoriented, thrashing for purchase in a world that suddenly felt far too precarious. There was no light, and she was trapped, she couldn’t move, she couldn't breath. Panicked, she rolled to the side, fingers scrambling over the figure she felt there. What had the Wise Ones done to her this time? What nightmare were they-? Abruptly a brawny arm circled her waist, and a callused, but gentle, hand smoothed her hair away from her face. A familiar voice whispered urgently, “Sinead. It’s a dream. Wake up, Sinead.”
Gasping for breath, she threw back her head, her hands curling into hard muscle as she tried to get away from her captor. Only when her hands rose and her fingers felt coarse beard and curly hair did she realize who was there. “Ravak.” The name escaped from her lips in a rush and all the strength left her body; she curled against him, her head resting against his chest. Safe. Until she fell asleep again, anyway, and then.... The shame of her fear gnawed at her gut, and she closed her eyes against even more shameful tears.
Silence stretched as he held her. Eventually she shifted, looking up to find him watching her in the darkness. “I told them. Tiena did not like my attitude,” amusement colored her voice, “but they know we will both sleep in the tents tonight.” She smiled, a flash of white teeth in the gloom. “They will not care over much whether we sleep in two tents or one, nor what we do within.”
The Gaidin reacted to that information exactly the way she thought he might; she turned her attention to lips and hands that caressed hers with increasing urgency, and chose to set aside the memory of what Tiena had done.
---
Later that morning she sat cross-legged on the ground near the gate to the Channeling Yard. She wore her cadin’sor; after so many years in white wool skirts, the brown algode and breeches felt alien, and yet...she knew she would grow used to them again. She had chosen it for both utility and to make a statement to the Wise Ones: I am my own person, not your bloody Apprentice. She had pulled her hair back in a braid and wrapped it several times against the back of her head before pinning it in place, but tendrils had already worked free and floated around her face beneath her shoufa. Save for the dagger at her belt she bore no weapons, and the only other things she carried with her were a filled waterskin and a small sack of essential possessions.
Ravak approached shortly after, and with him his bondmate. Sinead exchanged a glance with him, then rose smoothly and bowed her respect to them both, acutely aware of how much she towered over the diminutive Keeper.
“Tell me about this place you wish to go,” Kaia said. Sinead described the place she had spent time as a child, the place she had gone on her very first foray into the World of Dreams. The Aes Sedai nodded, then embraced saidar. The Aielwoman watched, fascinated, as flows of all five Powers wove together in front of Kaia, forming….something….that Sinead floundered to understand. Before her eyes could even finish tracing the weave, a gateway snapped open into a place Sinead had thought she might never see again.
She swallowed hard, and looked at Ravak. “Shall we, Ravak Gaidin?” She said, in a voice far less confident than she had hoped for.
Three weeks. Thirty days spent studying, thirty nights spent in varying degrees of discomfort. Sometimes the Wise Ones were present, sometimes not, but Sinead always knew when they pulled her from her dreams and into tel’aran’rhiod, could feel the difference as distinctly as she could feel the stone on her back. Sometimes she thought she could feel what they were doing, the sheer strength of will they exerted on their surroundings to maintain whatever it was they wanted her to see. This was not one of those nights.
Tonight she thought desperately of opening her eyes and feeling Ravak’s body pressed against hers in her narrow bed, of being free of the nightmare Tiena had concocted, of sleeping without dreams for once. She closed her eyes, imagining herself free, then opened them again, only to find herself staring into amused blue eyes.
“I am running out of patience,” Tiena commented. “The next time you sleep, I may put you in black and set you to counting sand.”
The Aielwoman’s thoughts tumbled to a stop, locking in place. The woman’s words conjured recent memories, memories too painful to contemplate, memories that stoked her frustration to a tempest of rage. Every ounce of concentration poured into her study of the older woman’s face as her anger and grief grew. She could not channel -Tiena had made certain of that- and yet….something else was there. If they could control this place, then surely so could she.
Get out of my face, she thought. The words were calm, and yet the force of her desire smashed into Tiena like a stormy sea against a cliff. The Wise One stumbled back, eyes widening, until at last her foot hit a rock sticking out of the ground and she fell. Sinead pushed back with her feet and tucked her arms around her face as she slid down the rock face, rolling to her hands and knees in the sand. Free….for the moment.
When the redhead looked up, Tiena stood over her. Irritated, Sinead scrambled to her feet, ignoring her nudity and the scrapes on her back as she met the Wise One’s gaze with cold green eyes. “Had you allowed me two seconds to speak before you began your ‘lesson,’” she said in a tone heavy with sarcasm, “you would know that I am departing for the Three-fold Land tomorrow. I will be bringing a guardian with me- the Tower does not allow its trainees to wander so far alone.”
“An Aes Sedai?” Tiena’s eyes sharpened.
“No, a Gaidin. His name is Ravak.” Sinead smiled slightly. “He is bonded to another, so save yourself a trip to that place where dreams are,” she added, her tone flippant. It seemed doubtful they would take her at her word, but it couldn't hurt to try.
“Why would the Tower send a bonded Gaidin with an “Accepted”? Why not one who is not bonded?”
The assumed idle curiosity in Tiena’s tone set the former Maiden on edge. “I am coming to the Three-fold Land to learn how to Dreamwalk, not to become a Wise One,” she said through gritted teeth. “What the Tower chooses to do to protect its initiates is none of your affair.” The Wise One’s eyes flashed, and Sinead felt an invisible blow that dropped her to her knees, biting her lip hard against an involuntary exclamation of pain. And so it begins again…
----
Sinead opened her eyes, groggy and disoriented, thrashing for purchase in a world that suddenly felt far too precarious. There was no light, and she was trapped, she couldn’t move, she couldn't breath. Panicked, she rolled to the side, fingers scrambling over the figure she felt there. What had the Wise Ones done to her this time? What nightmare were they-? Abruptly a brawny arm circled her waist, and a callused, but gentle, hand smoothed her hair away from her face. A familiar voice whispered urgently, “Sinead. It’s a dream. Wake up, Sinead.”
Gasping for breath, she threw back her head, her hands curling into hard muscle as she tried to get away from her captor. Only when her hands rose and her fingers felt coarse beard and curly hair did she realize who was there. “Ravak.” The name escaped from her lips in a rush and all the strength left her body; she curled against him, her head resting against his chest. Safe. Until she fell asleep again, anyway, and then.... The shame of her fear gnawed at her gut, and she closed her eyes against even more shameful tears.
Silence stretched as he held her. Eventually she shifted, looking up to find him watching her in the darkness. “I told them. Tiena did not like my attitude,” amusement colored her voice, “but they know we will both sleep in the tents tonight.” She smiled, a flash of white teeth in the gloom. “They will not care over much whether we sleep in two tents or one, nor what we do within.”
The Gaidin reacted to that information exactly the way she thought he might; she turned her attention to lips and hands that caressed hers with increasing urgency, and chose to set aside the memory of what Tiena had done.
---
Later that morning she sat cross-legged on the ground near the gate to the Channeling Yard. She wore her cadin’sor; after so many years in white wool skirts, the brown algode and breeches felt alien, and yet...she knew she would grow used to them again. She had chosen it for both utility and to make a statement to the Wise Ones: I am my own person, not your bloody Apprentice. She had pulled her hair back in a braid and wrapped it several times against the back of her head before pinning it in place, but tendrils had already worked free and floated around her face beneath her shoufa. Save for the dagger at her belt she bore no weapons, and the only other things she carried with her were a filled waterskin and a small sack of essential possessions.
Ravak approached shortly after, and with him his bondmate. Sinead exchanged a glance with him, then rose smoothly and bowed her respect to them both, acutely aware of how much she towered over the diminutive Keeper.
“Tell me about this place you wish to go,” Kaia said. Sinead described the place she had spent time as a child, the place she had gone on her very first foray into the World of Dreams. The Aes Sedai nodded, then embraced saidar. The Aielwoman watched, fascinated, as flows of all five Powers wove together in front of Kaia, forming….something….that Sinead floundered to understand. Before her eyes could even finish tracing the weave, a gateway snapped open into a place Sinead had thought she might never see again.
She swallowed hard, and looked at Ravak. “Shall we, Ravak Gaidin?” She said, in a voice far less confident than she had hoped for.




