His mind relished the darker side that the troubles had caused to rise up. The "beast" railed against the side of the void as Felix and Angel walked to the bakery in silence. He wanted to lash out at the people that walked next to him, to flail the skin from the young men that gazed at Angel as if she was a piece of meat or the Women that made the same look at him. He wanted to burn someone alive just for bumping into him. The beast had more then a few ways to elicit screams from his possible victims. The scream and feel of a person trying to run for their lives, a look of desperation as they locked eyes with you as you drained them of their life blood with a dull blade.
He longed for the feeling that would bring to him, the pleasure!
He was pent up and knew that it was wrong to feel the way he did so he pushed the beast in his mind back into a cage as they walked. He struggled to contain the thoughts it caused but he managed to lock it away in the deeper darker recesses of his mind.
They arrived without incident in the Bakery and Angel ordered sandwiches and asked him what he would have. "Good sir, I will just have the same as her. They received their food after Felix payed the Baker and sat at a table in the stifling building.
He ate quietly as he got more lost in his struggle to stop the thoughts that bubbled out of the prison in his mind. He let the feelings smash the void around him and sat with a lost look on his face. He would be sentenced to death if he ever acted on the thoughts in his mind.
After a while of him beating himself up in his mind over something he could not control he pushed the troubles away and looked to Angel, sweet Angel. His friend when he had none. He had missed her so much over the past months when he had pursued his studies with a fervor seen only in brown aspirants. He had sucked up knowledge of weaves, history, and tactics all so he could take the test for the arches and get the shining pin on his coat.
He felt no different better now that the sword pin rested on his collar, he wished that he could leave the tower and venture out and inflict harm on a beast of the shadow. Something he would be allowed to harm and terrorize.
Felix looked up at Angel and gazed into her eyes as he asked, "What do you plan on doing when you pass the test and become Aes Sedai? I am ready to venture afield and see the world."
In reality he wanted to harm something but it was not safe to speak his mind, not even with his closest friend.
He longed for the feeling that would bring to him, the pleasure!
He was pent up and knew that it was wrong to feel the way he did so he pushed the beast in his mind back into a cage as they walked. He struggled to contain the thoughts it caused but he managed to lock it away in the deeper darker recesses of his mind.
They arrived without incident in the Bakery and Angel ordered sandwiches and asked him what he would have. "Good sir, I will just have the same as her. They received their food after Felix payed the Baker and sat at a table in the stifling building.
He ate quietly as he got more lost in his struggle to stop the thoughts that bubbled out of the prison in his mind. He let the feelings smash the void around him and sat with a lost look on his face. He would be sentenced to death if he ever acted on the thoughts in his mind.
After a while of him beating himself up in his mind over something he could not control he pushed the troubles away and looked to Angel, sweet Angel. His friend when he had none. He had missed her so much over the past months when he had pursued his studies with a fervor seen only in brown aspirants. He had sucked up knowledge of weaves, history, and tactics all so he could take the test for the arches and get the shining pin on his coat.
He felt no different better now that the sword pin rested on his collar, he wished that he could leave the tower and venture out and inflict harm on a beast of the shadow. Something he would be allowed to harm and terrorize.
Felix looked up at Angel and gazed into her eyes as he asked, "What do you plan on doing when you pass the test and become Aes Sedai? I am ready to venture afield and see the world."
In reality he wanted to harm something but it was not safe to speak his mind, not even with his closest friend.
