"I promise that I will only laugh with you, and not at you. But only for as long as we're in the yards." Her relief was palpable as Ravak continued, Katrie relaxing beneath the wide smile that made him look so much more friendly than when they'd first met. Then his full meaning struck her and she countered his good-natured gibe by making another face at him. He then went to... invite her to visit the Yards... for advice.
Just advice? she couldn't help but think, and for once, she was at a loss with how to proceed. If this was Cairhien, it would be easy... the only way to proceed was forward, but somehow, the dark-eyed Novice didn't think that pushing on through was the best way to continue. The Grey Tower was
not Cairhien, and she was merely another white-clad initiate. Who was also dealing with
another initiate.
Her mind spinning with strange new thoughts, Katrie took the brief lull in the conversation to study Ravak from beneath lowered lashes. True, he wasn't the most handsome man she had ever encountered, but his appearance did not displease her. She liked the way the paleness of his skin brought out the vivid colour of his eyes. The dry patches of skin on his forehead made her want to rub at her own out of sympathy, but she let it be for now.
That can always be remedied, she thought confidently. Ravak had qualities and quirks that she was fascinated by, Katrie finding his peculiar way of glaring at her oddly charming rather than frightening. His sullenness stemmed from something... and she wanted to find out what. He was engaging, obviously intelligent, and had shown that he accepted her curiosity and questions with genuine sincerity.
No one had ever simply
talked with her before. Yes, she decided then, she would visit the Yards and watch... whatever it was that the Drin and Ji did.
Ravak brought his hands together, the motion pulling her focus outward. Something scraped against the wooden table and dark eyes lit up at the mystery. Quickly, Katrie snapped her attention up to his face, eager to know what it was that he hid in his hands, and found that blue-grey eyes were already intent on her own. "I can't help but feel that we're going to have some... interesting times together."
She couldn't have agreed more but he didn't leave her a chance to chime in with her own thoughts on that particular topic.
He was leaning forward towards her. "I'm sure that someone as charming as yourself has a large group of friends at the Tower already and I'm not one for making friends easy, but..." He seemed to remember to breathe then, his words coming out rushed. He smiled at her before parting his hands, revealing... a key? Katrie's unspoken question was answered before she could voice it. "I was told to give this to someone I could trust. A friend or confidante."
Wait... what? He's not talking about me is – oh.... Her mind stuttered to a halt as Ravak pushed the key towards her. Katrie stared at it, wide-eyed and completely at a loss for words. "I would like to entrust you with this. I know there's rules, about being in the living quarters of the opposite gender, but, but well... And I'm definitely not suggesting anything untoward, no suggestions of bonds but you- I... I can look to you as a friend, I hope."
Katrie felt her face shift in surprise, her brows nearly lifting off her head. Everything that she had been taught to do to school her face into showing nothing failed her, and naked emotion rampaged across her pretty features. Heat that she couldn't control rose up her neck, red staining across the curve of cheek and jawline beneath coppery skin. Wild joy warred with utter panic as she stared at Ravak for what seemed like an eternity.
A friend! Me! some part of her that was not her brain crowed in absolute delight.
He wants me to be his friend! Another part of her recoiled at her woeful inexperience in the subject matter. Because she didn't know
how to be a friend... She was of House Riatin, and she didn't
have any friends. The Great Game didn't permit friends... but... but. She remembered the keen desire to have them, buried as it was. Someone she could talk to... someone she could laugh with... someone who wouldn't stab her in the back for profit and gain as soon as the opportunity presented itself... Her hands were shaking, she realized. It didn't matter what she wanted, did it? It all circled back to the same thing:
She had no idea how to be a friend.
“No... yes... but... you see... I don't... wanted to! How... I just never had... know... I
don't...!” It made perfect sense in her mind as she tried to verbalize an explanation, but she couldn't comprehend why Ravak's face fell the way it did, or why he reached over stiffly to pick the key back up, heavy and despondent.
“I – ” that was as far as he got.
“What are you
doing?!” Katrie jumped to her feet, her chair thrust back violently from the table with her burst of motion. She loomed over the table and by extension, him.
Blue-grey eyes were round and he was looking at her as if she'd suddenly sprouted another head. “You didn't...”
“Give that back!” It came out as a command as she pointed at what was in his hand. “The key.
Now.” The speed with which he hastened to comply was impressive. Katrie snatched the key up in her hand as soon as it was in in reach, holding the pain metal symbol as close to her body as she could. She glowered at him, seething as she settled back into her chair. “I said I didn't know
how, not that I
wouldn't!” She fairly radiated indignation, frowning at him darkly. “And you didn't even let me explain!”
He was eyeing her warily. Good! He should! Making assumptions like that! “I was
trying to tell you that I don't
have any friends here. Or anywhere. I've never had one. I don't know
how to be one. And I was going to say if you still wanted to be mine, that you were going to have to be patient with me and help me learn how to, because I do want to be
your friend.” Her chin lifted and she gave a regal toss of her head. “But now I don't want to talk about it anymore.”
The metal key warmed against her skin as she glared at Ravak.
“
Also, I was going to ask you to clarify what you considered
untoward... but I don't want to talk about
that now either,” she huffed.
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((OOC: Are you sure Rav still wants to be her friend? There's still time to run!

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